It All Works Out

Lately I've been feeling down about dance. For some reason I've been having major loss of memory when it comes to choreography.. I have no idea why but I've panicked on several occasions as of lately and I've never felt such embarrassment in my life. I literally walked out of the dance studio 2 times in the last week when I just could not for the life of me remember the choreography that we JUST learned. I'm really hard on myself when it comes to things like this too. I cried hard on my way home the other night due to a combination of things. I think Ive just been feeling overwhelmed. I've even gotten sick in the last couple weeks which basically knocked me off my weekly schedule. I was forced to take a day off work and rehearsal right when Im the busiest I've ever been. I also for a second thought that I may not be performing in the company I auditioned for recently and that added insult to injury. I'm hoping next week changes my outlook on things because as of lately I've been struggling to maintain during the week. I'm about to look for new motivation and inspiration. Sometimes I need something like that to pick me up when I feel deflated. All I can say is thank god for weekends.